I am in a seriously blue mood

I am so sad because too many sad things happened recently. First, my relationship with my lover has changed so much that I can still hardly accept this fact. X is such a assle and he hurts me deeply in mind and body. Second, my grandfather's illness is getting worse and worse. The doctor told us that we have tto get prepared for that he may die someday. Third, my grandmother may get a stomach cancer. I am so sad and in a terrible mood. I feel that life is full of sarrow and difficulty and I don't want to breath one more air into my lung anymore.