I will be certainly fat~~~

Oh my deer god, my face is getting fatter and fatter. I think there is no other reason except I eat too much. I am a man who with a baby face and I really hate that my face is so big and looks not like a man. I really admire men whose face and body are strong and manstyle. I am a ugly person and I really hate my face because if I eat a little bit tooo much, then my face will blow up just like a ballon. I am so sad but I can do nothing to my face.

We have to open our eyes to see the true fact of everything

I used to be, even now, a person who only look for the benefit that i can get from everything. If there is a benefit, then I will do it or achieve it by all means,even in the bad ways. I used to be a person, even now, who only judge everyone on their face and outlooking. If they are beautiful or strong, I will be blad to sacrifice everything for them. But after I experience several big things, I start to consider whether it is right or not. I found that I was miserably mistaken and I will think more carefully about what attitude I should take toward everything I meet.

My attutide toward life is getting better and better

Recently, I have thought for many times that life is not as terrible as I thought before. Although It is true that there are numerous things that will make me cry and think that life is totally miserable. But, there are many things that I can treasure in this world. Love is the most beautiful thing in the world and I really appreciate that I have the ability to love my family, just depending on whether I want to do or not.

My heart is broken

I am so sad in love relationship because I just broke up with my lover. I can't stand this and I don't want to live any more. Although I know that we will not have the happy ending and even our start is totally wrong, I still want it's body and love for killing time and more exciting. I am such a bad man who eat his own bad fruit as I did. I hate this world and I don't want to live in this terrible world anymore.

I am so tired

I am so tired because I do too much exercise recently. I swam for 1200 m last Thursday and Friday then I ran for 3000m in P.E. class. Oh my god, I am now all exhausted and I even can't walk for a while. No matter how tired I am, I will still swim and run for my health.

I am a lonely lonely person

No matter how I try, I always feel lonely and sad in this big world. I can't fell that I am loved by people although there are many people who really care about me. I still feel lonely and sad whenever I live in this blue world. I want to die and live no lnger in this world. I can't find the place to place my mind safe and I am like wind which can never find a place to settle itself down.Goodbye this world.

I am in a seriously blue mood

I am so sad because too many sad things happened recently. First, my relationship with my lover has changed so much that I can still hardly accept this fact. X is such a assle and he hurts me deeply in mind and body. Second, my grandfather's illness is getting worse and worse. The doctor told us that we have tto get prepared for that he may die someday. Third, my grandmother may get a stomach cancer. I am so sad and in a terrible mood. I feel that life is full of sarrow and difficulty and I don't want to breath one more air into my lung anymore.