I will be certainly fat~~~

Oh my deer god, my face is getting fatter and fatter. I think there is no other reason except I eat too much. I am a man who with a baby face and I really hate that my face is so big and looks not like a man. I really admire men whose face and body are strong and manstyle. I am a ugly person and I really hate my face because if I eat a little bit tooo much, then my face will blow up just like a ballon. I am so sad but I can do nothing to my face.

We have to open our eyes to see the true fact of everything

I used to be, even now, a person who only look for the benefit that i can get from everything. If there is a benefit, then I will do it or achieve it by all means,even in the bad ways. I used to be a person, even now, who only judge everyone on their face and outlooking. If they are beautiful or strong, I will be blad to sacrifice everything for them. But after I experience several big things, I start to consider whether it is right or not. I found that I was miserably mistaken and I will think more carefully about what attitude I should take toward everything I meet.

My attutide toward life is getting better and better

Recently, I have thought for many times that life is not as terrible as I thought before. Although It is true that there are numerous things that will make me cry and think that life is totally miserable. But, there are many things that I can treasure in this world. Love is the most beautiful thing in the world and I really appreciate that I have the ability to love my family, just depending on whether I want to do or not.

My heart is broken

I am so sad in love relationship because I just broke up with my lover. I can't stand this and I don't want to live any more. Although I know that we will not have the happy ending and even our start is totally wrong, I still want it's body and love for killing time and more exciting. I am such a bad man who eat his own bad fruit as I did. I hate this world and I don't want to live in this terrible world anymore.

I am so tired

I am so tired because I do too much exercise recently. I swam for 1200 m last Thursday and Friday then I ran for 3000m in P.E. class. Oh my god, I am now all exhausted and I even can't walk for a while. No matter how tired I am, I will still swim and run for my health.

I am a lonely lonely person

No matter how I try, I always feel lonely and sad in this big world. I can't fell that I am loved by people although there are many people who really care about me. I still feel lonely and sad whenever I live in this blue world. I want to die and live no lnger in this world. I can't find the place to place my mind safe and I am like wind which can never find a place to settle itself down.Goodbye this world.

I am in a seriously blue mood

I am so sad because too many sad things happened recently. First, my relationship with my lover has changed so much that I can still hardly accept this fact. X is such a assle and he hurts me deeply in mind and body. Second, my grandfather's illness is getting worse and worse. The doctor told us that we have tto get prepared for that he may die someday. Third, my grandmother may get a stomach cancer. I am so sad and in a terrible mood. I feel that life is full of sarrow and difficulty and I don't want to breath one more air into my lung anymore.

the unfinished part

Of course, we are students and we dont't have any right to say anything bad about them, so they will never think again what is the best for us and what is the best for us to really learn somethings from this college. I think I am just wasting my parent's money and my golden time in some course. I hate to just follow what these people told or command us to do and we don't have any way to express our own thoughts. I really want to improve my knowledge and not just memorize something that is useless and time-wasting. Although I think there will be nothng changed even I make this post but I just can bear it, this ugly thing anymore.

we will always meet someone who is a piece of sht

I am serious shocked after i went into this sht college because i meet too many elder people who don't know what is the best for our students. They always complain about how tired they are and how sacrificing they are for us. They can think all kinds of mean things for us to do and take and they don't care whether it is really helpful for us or not. They just follow their own conveniences for checking our tests. They jus think that they have the right to command any kind of useless and time-wasting things for us to do just because they have the right to make us reread this course.

people are all selfish and think about themselves

I found recently that people are all selfish and think about themselves. I don't mean to blame for anybody who I know because I think I am one of this kind of animals and I am more selfish than anyone in the world. I just do things or say things which will be good for me and don't care about others. you must be wondering why I have this kind of thought. I can tell you why because if people don't think for his own good, then he will be kicked out of this cruel world.

my favorite food in the world

Although I am in a pretty good shape, i really love to eat things. I love to almost everything in the world and I hate nothing in the world. But I have to say that the food I love most in the world is chocolate!!! I love to eat dark chocolat especially 50% or 70%. I think chocolate is god's food because it brings me happiness and peace. When I am in a bad moon, I usually will eat one piece of chocolate to comfort my blue soul. I love chocolate and I can't live without it even one minute.

No matter what people say ablout me, I will still be I

In this world, everybody is individual and has his/her own thoughts. I used to be very caring about what other people think about me and my behaviors. I was so afraid of doing something which is not accepted by even one person. I used to anticipate other people's compliments to judge whether I was worht to live in this world or not. But I am totally changed now and I can do everything just on my own thought. I don't consider other people's thoughts about me anymore and I feel very great now because I am confident in myself.

I dont want to be away from her~

yes, because i am a student so i have to go back to this shit college. I am very unhappy because I have to be sepreted from her owning this shit world's rules. During the four days, we have some wonderful and wild memories but i don't feel enough because she couldn't pay all attention on me for she has the duty to her family. By the way, we can't hug in public and kiss in public just because our love is not accepted by all people in the world. I feel so sad because we really love each other with our true heart.

the last meeting

Last weekend I finally went back to Peigun because we have a four-days holidays. On 4/4 next to midnight, I finally meet her in Chia-yi and we have a wonderful meal then we went to walk around the roads in Chia-yi. After we get on our car, we have something which is wonderful and secret together to tell that how missing we were through out the month. I think i am getting much more likeing her and I think this is not something quiet correct.

it is hard to wait for our meeting

I have a person who I love most in the world although i know that our love will not have a wonderful ending. She lives in peigun and she has to go to work in Peigun, but I can't stay with her in Peigun because I have to go to the terrible college, Chang Gung. I found that time is hard to pass because I want to see her every minutes.

I think life is just boring to death

I don't like to live in the world at all because I think there is nothing interesting. We woke up every morning and we eat, drink, poo poo and pee pee just for living. We have to talk to people who we don't like and to smile whenever we need to smile to show our friendness. I think all the man in the world are animal who need to wear masks to live in this meaningless world. What is the meaning to live in this fake world? I don't know and I can't find. Actually, I don't want to find it at all because I think it represents nothing or just something that created for explaning what we don't know.

my secret affair

well, i have to say that i am a really bad boy who doenn't care about what the world tell us to obey. I do everything according to my own thoughts and dont care whether the outcome will be good or bad. Everyone who recognize me all say I am a good and smart boy who know how to behave well. But i don't think how they can judge a person just by talking to him for few times, even my family don't, neither.

We will never know what will happen next moment

you must wonder about the title of this new post and i will tell you the answer. I have been in a bad moon since i was told by my mom that my grandfather was in the intensive care unit yesterday. He could hardly breath because his lungs are sick. So I went to home as quickly asi could to take care of him but his condition is still not so optimistic. Well, I think that we should treasure what we have now because we will never know what will happen next moment.

My first post!!!

when it comes to building my personal blog, I really feel so interested about it because this blog is my world which i can creat and be myself. Wow, what a amazing thing for me to do and i really appreciate that i can have this chance to improve my English writing. I think i will creat this blog as my diary to share my feeling and no matter what happens in my life.